Sunday, January 13, 2013

Small change....not a big deal?!

I'm sorry I never posted after my last hearing test.  It wasn't great news but more importantly Christmas overshadowed any normalcy that my life might have had.  And that's not saying much since  I already feel that I run around like a chicken with her head cut off only doing everything half-assed.  My prayer throughout the season most of the time came in the form of a scatter brained plea as I was behind the wheel of the car driving, "Dear God don't let me forget anything!"

I love Christmas but being a working mother to two really makes it a challenging time of year.  All of the expectations we place on ourselves to manage it all with one hand tied behind our back weigh me down.  This year I decided that simple was better and less was more.  I did what I could and what could not be accomplished was let go without guilt.  I wanted to enjoy the time more instead of letting the stress suck me in. 

Christmas day was wonderful.  Filled with laughter and family, food and naps, and excited unwrapping and game playing.  Despite my worry I did not forget a thing!

Back to my appointment, there was some change in my hearing though the audiologist and hearing aid specialist acted unconcerned about it.  I couldn't help but thinking, "Yeah its no big deal to you."  I know that attitude sucked but it was how I felt at the time.  I mean to tell me that there was a small change nothing to worry about but to then up my hearing aids another notch and create a TV watching mode for me doesn't feel like nothing to me.  It feels like a whole big load of something.

In 11 days I have my appointment with the specialist where three months time will have passed and a test on the same equipment will be preformed.  This should be a more accurate read.  I am hopeful that there will be no further change.